Life with two under the age of 2... It's so beautifully hard. Someone once told me, "before you have children you don't really know how many hours are in a day." I thought that was pretty stupid. There are 24 hours in a day. But then I had a baby and I knew exactly what they meant. The hours seemed to creep slower and fly faster than they ever had before. There was never enough time to do anything and too much time before the next "thing" was happening.
People also told us "having two is so much easier than having one." I thought that was pretty stupid too. And then I had a second baby and I still think that is stupid. It is harder. Yes, taking care of baby number 2 is easier than taking care of the first because now I at least kinda know what I'm doing, but I'm still completely clueless as to what to do with a 2 year old on top of having a new born. Especially my 2 year old. He's completely insane.
Tonight as I struggled to get dinner on the table I finally said some things out loud that I have been thinking for the past couple of weeks. "I'll never have time to myself again!" "Our house is always a mess!" "We are never going to go on another date again!" "I'll never have a free hand!" ... and as the statements came out of my mouth I knew they weren't true and somewhere deep down I felt sad. I felt really really sad that these moments wont last forever. Someday I'll sleep through the night and have all 24 hours of my day to myself again and (oh expletive) am I going to miss this.